I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
This is a "she art" girl that I made several weeks ago as I was working through my conviction over having such an impossible time adjusting to the house we live in. Being able to feel at home wherever I live has always been a priority for me...much in part because my home was shattered at 12 and at 17 I left for good. I have always overcompensated by trying to make my surroundings "cozy" The last time I counted I think it was like 30 moves since then due to just life going on, so it was not as if I am a stranger to change. Still, I have not been able to accomplish that here. In addition to the many restrictions on what I could do to personalize this space, it is also very open to the elements (and critters of all sorts) and as such truly impossible to clean to my standard. Lets just say that I was not even remotely graceful in my attempts to cope with that. I was finally really convicted that I was not trusting God in His sovereignty and that my discontent was truly sinful. As I sincerely repented, I began to see some of what He had been working out in me all along....and as is always the case for me He has provided for me more than I even hoped or asked (future post). Why oh why at this stage of life do I struggle so? His good and pleasing perfect will is ALWAYS for my good and His glory. Soooo....I am grateful for many things in my life and not the least of which is for all of my internet friends who have been such a bright spot of sunshine during this time. I am rejoicing in the forgiveness and peace that comes from repentance. Repent ye therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, that so there may come seasons of refreshing from the presence of the Lord; Acts 3:19